Infinitely Ki Tov..

another great skating day.. BH

and the hot springs.. so so nice..
especially being dropped off right in front of them.. what a miracle.. thank you.

Skating @ night around Har Tzion and seeing the beautiful views of Jersualem is just so magical.. BH

Infinitely Ki Tov..
everyday BSD..

Yummy!

This really deserves to be blogged about. It was so yummy!

Carmelized cheesy honey garlic toast.

• Whole wheat bread
• Sesame oil
• Honey roasted peanut butter
• Maple syrup
• Garlic sliced
• A dash of salt and black pepper
• Goat cheese – labneh with olive oil and zattar
• And drizzled some more sesame oil on top..

I then toasted it all in the toaster oven for a few minutes until the cheese melted and the garlic carmelized.. It was really good! BH

I gave them sweets.. they were ecstatic

If I'd only know how such a simple gesture can delight a brokenhearted human being...

She knocked on our door.. I know her.. she's made her rounds here before.. her question is always "matei at nosat" - when are you flying? "I don't know", I answer.. but she is not satisfied. She insists I tell her.. "seriously when are you going?".. and this goes on for the next ten minutes.. she thinks I don't want to reveal to her for some reason.. but I sincerely do not know when I fly. Whenever I feel it's right.. I myself don't know many times in the morning that I would be flying that day..
Today she came again with her sister.. knocking on our door for tzedakah... I gave them some candy.. they were so ecstatic.. as if I had just given them a $100 bill.. and I was even happier seeing their smiles and beaming faces.. someone had them in mind on this rainy wet night..
G-d delight us..

City of David - singing and lighting up

I checked out the sound and light musical installation @ the Tower of David museum. It was really cool..





אור חדש על ציון תאיר ונזכה כלנו במהרה לאורו


May we merit to hear very soon in our days the true song and see the new light shining on zion and on the entire world..


I got to see my favorite glass artist Dale Chihuly's grass in the garden and lighting art piece on the ceiling..



His work is so exciting! I love it!

Mystical Jams.. Rollerblading on Jer. TA highway and more gifts..

wow... so many amazing jams and music this week.. ki lecha- old city.. pd nachlaot.. beit meir.. gcolony peace gathering.. kotel.. and can't wait for tonight's..

Skating from Beit Meir to Beit Shemesh was amazing.. Those uphills are quite tough but once you get over the hills.. the fun begins.. it is downhill all the way to Beit Shemesh.. it was a wild wild ride.. rollerblading at night on the Jerusalem - Tel Aviv highway..

@ the peace gathering.. I heard a beautiful torah from Rebitzin Emunah Witt -

There was once a very kind and warm hearted woman.. always tried to help everyone. Whenever someone knocked on her door she tried to help him any which way she can.. Once a beggar knocked on her door.. She looked around her home for some food or anything else she could give him but could find nothing to give him. So she took off her wedding band and gave it to him so that he can trade it -in and get some food.

When her husband came home she told him about it. She thought her husband would be happy .. but he was disappointed and hurt.. it's the wedding band!.. I am still giving it to you everyday..

some gifts you just can't give away..

Oh G-d please.. let us see the beauty.. let us appreciate and truly value the great gifts you give us.. let us believe and know how much you care and love us.. let us never disappoint you.. we want to do good.. what is right.. please show us.. light up our lives.. (composition @ Edison.. Shabbos candles..)

Skating to the Kotel!

awesome.
I loved the downhills .. down yaffo.. and twist and turns leading to the Kotel..

Ein Hod and Divrei Hayamim adventure.

B"H it already started out being so much fun.
I met the cutest guy.. he must be at least in his 80s. He was so full of life.. love.. it was just so exciting to hear him. We had some wonderful conversations talking about art from Byzantine Egyptian, Moorish, Chinese, to Modern and contemporary.. architecture, Gaudi.. geography, social sciences.. He had so much knowledge to share.. and it was so entertaining.. He raised his loving family with a love and appreciation for the great outdoors and the arts.. He now takes his grandchildren to all the places..
We talked about contemporary art- Where is the border between Talent and Chutzpah? Art as a reflection of the society..
I probably could've listened to him for hours.. but I needed to get off.. He was heading to Tel Aviv and I needed to continue toward Haifa.. I thanked him for the entertaining ride and continued on..(that's what I love about hitchhiking! I have met the most interesting coolest people.. so many adventures..)

Ein Hod is such a lovely place.. Really inspiring.. I need to come back again too and check out all the galleries.. and studios..

Divrei Hayim was just truly mesmerizing!


so soothing and hypnotic... and the improv jams were so much fun! bh..

They asked me to come back.. I think I will.. IY"H..

Welcome Back Skater Girl!

It's good to be back.. (What a welcome: a herd of 50 goats..and all the bedouin kids coming out to greet me .. waving hands, yelling.. cheering on.. and then the sheperd a mere 5 yr old boy comes up to me.. money.. money.. bringing me down to the reality..)

I just wish they wouldn't have scraped my most favorite part...

I could not resist the adventure bug and had to do a night hike into the wilderness w/0 any light. I got all scratched up trying to extricate myself from the dry bushes. and thorns.. ... plus it left me with no time to change.. and showed up in my play clothes :)

and of course swimming in dead sea at night was great... supercharged me and made me alive. B"H

truelife in the eighth dimension

I can't resist from posting these delights by Bardugo. This guy is amazingly talented.

Chag Sameach.






















I have got to stop... or else I'll be posting his entire gallery.. bardugo.net

wow! holy sukkah! ופרוש עלינו סוכת שלומך

What a farbrengen!! wow!!
Thanks so much everyone. It was just awesome.. so so high.. the music.. the holy words of torah.. of kings and princesses, shabbos and succos, weddings and sheva brochot, shavuot and simchat torah, harvest and rebirth, cycles, shifting of space, directions, bringing it to the heart spreading it out, sefirot, midot, peace, peace, Aharon, and love... high spirits.. and being with you my dear friends holy beautiful brothers and sisters!

Thanks Nachman for opening your Sukah and for all the good wine.. Thank you Rachel, Eliyahu, Chana, Sarah, guitar man, rotating drummers, jammers and listeners... wow!
Thank You Hakodosh Baruch Hu for opening my heart and allowing me to sing.. and making this happen!!

ופרוש עלינו סוכת רחמים וחיים ושלום ברוך אתה ה הפורש סוכת שלום עלינו ועל כל עמו ישראל ועל ירושלים




Spread over us the shelter of Your peace.

BBP BH - Beautiful Birthday Presents Baruch Hashem

Thank G-d I got to see the Beautiful Birthday Presents..

Gd granted me life.. a good life.. I am healthy and well.. I like the way I look (others too :) I can connect with people.. I am having fun.. I am living the life of my dreams…

May He continue to bless us all with an abundance of blessings joy and happiness forever and may we get to see His love for us in the most grandiose beautiful way... always.. forever..

There was going to be a post titled horrible birthday presents.. thank G-d I was elevated and my music took on a different song now.. I was walking down the streets of Nachlaot whispering sweet melodies.. enchanting myself.. and other passbyers as well as some dwellers peeking out of their houses wondering from where the melody was coming from. I than sat down on a bench in the park.. soon a flutist joined as well.. but we had to stop not long after that.. one of the neighbors wanted some quiet.. And then some others came out asking for some more music...

It was cool.. one of the people remembers me the skater girl.. from 10 years back when he was a bus driver doing his route down the highway to the dead sea..


קסריה was beautiful.. The ocean. Oh how refreshing!!!











Thank G-d I have got to meet some wonderful beautiful people along the way on my journey..

After spending the night day and evening in I went to the Jerusalem. I got to the Kotel..Birchat Cohanim.. really early.. in the early morning.. so that I had a place right next to the wall.. I was still singing yesterdays song and it was hard for me to start davening but slowly the music metamorphosized into a different song..


ידיד נפש אב הרחמן

And was able to pray…

Later when the crowds started showing up.. and the pushing and shoving began.. I climbed onto a pile of 20 chairs. ( I can't stand being pushed and shoved..) From up there I was able to breathe.. and got to see the entire view.. wow!

G-d please accept all our prayers.. I know you wont turn us down.. Please listen to the blessings of the Cohanim which you revealed to them to bless us..

יברכך ה וישמרך יאר ה פניו אליך ויחנך ישא ה פניו אליך וישם לך שלום

Another Beautiful Birthday Present

Thinking about it.. it's ironic how I thought I needed to find internet access so that I can check up someone's number.. wrong..(heh – do we think we understand anything?) internet access was just the catalyst..


G-d wanted me to meet His beautiful pure beloved children.. beautiful pure souls.. hopefully I learn from them, from their kindness, generosity, sincerity goodness and caring.. and hopefully it rubs off on me.

Thank you so much Ilan.. you are so special and sweet.. yet you do it.. in such a simple.. matter of fact way…. wow!

That was definitely another beautiful birthday present too.. Thank You G-d.


(and yeah - there are infinitely more reasons too.. as to why..
I'd never know.. I'd never understand...)

Yesterday's song

Don't you say you love me
with an everlasting love (you love me)
Don't you say you love me
With an everlasting love
Is this the way you show it..

That when…



And you just have fun
looking at us
And you just have fun
laughing at us
And you just have fun
seeing us in pain.. trying to make it work..

But if you make the rules
You've got
no excuses
Nothing is beyond you

But if you make the rules
You've got
no excuses
Nothing is beyond you

What sort of entertainment is this for you?
What sort of game are you playing with us?

I don't want to play this game..



I don't believe in this song..
Even when I was writing it.. and singing it.. I know
that life is not some sort of movie G-d is enjoying watching..
Life is not a game G-d is playing with us.. .
It just can't be..

G-d is not enjoying … seeing us in pain..
He is always with us.. in our.. or more correctly in His pain..

(just as the silversmith purifying his silver in the fire.. he can't drop the silver for a second . or else it'll just get too hot... and how does he know that the silver is ready, pure and just perfect.. when the silversmith sees his image in the silver..)

And that we are not.. merely His entertainers..

Yet I was extremely hurting at that time and the question still remains … and I don't think there could be an answer.. since any reasoning given I'd say.. but G-d is beyond this logic.. He is not bound limited by that… and could've created the world as such that…

I would appreciate your insights and comments..to this..

Yet, a believer is not a believer for the answers.. He is a believer for the questions..


Still I believe in G-d..
a merciful good G-d
our father..our lover..
G-d recreating the world.. and every single thing in this world.. every moment.
He is watching over us and being with us constantly.. every moment..
Everything comes from Him and it is all G-d - Good.

I pray pray pray I should never lose faith in this..
never be down as to entertain thoughts otherwise..
but maybe those thoughts… doubts..
challenge me..
make me stronger…
make me grow...
ירידה לצורך עליה

help.. here I go..
I am getting stuck again..
but G-d created this rule… this law of nature.. law of spirituality.. cause and effect.. and G-d is unlimited.. infinite.. beyond this..

so?!?


Chag Sameach..
Hashem please bless us all to see Your beauty joy light and love.. and serve you through joy!

hey. I found myself..