my precious siddur

סידור סידור סידור
מיין טייערע סידור
דו ביזט א טייל פון מיינע גלידער

I don't have my siddur.. it is really precious to me.. it is the 'one thing'.. that is always with me.. it traveles with me.. everywhere.. all over the globe.. The last one I had.. fell down exit glacier in Alaska.. I was praying at one of the most beautiful glaciers!! It was really awesome.. and definitely effected my prayers.. I was so into it.. and whoops.. the siddur slipped my hands.. and fell down a huge cliff.. beyond reach.

well.. on wednesday I rollerbladed to Yam Hamelech.. I went to the hot springs.. and davened mincha.. afterwards I remember putting my siddur back in my bag.. but the next morning on Thursday I couldn't find it.. now it is possible I left it.. either in tremp from dead sea back to jerusalem ... or the bus I took to malcha.. or @ the spring on wallaja road where I went for a swim.. the ride back to jerusalem - yetziah mehair.. or at the bus stop back to beit shemesh... or on the bus back home..

Thursday I was going to go to Banias.. I wasn't sure which way to go derech habikah or kvish 6.. but realizing that my siddur wasn't with me.. I decided to go derech habikah.. so that I could first stop in Jerusalem and check at the bus stop for my siddur.. It wasn't there.. I then got a tremp.. direct all the way to tzemach!!! and wow.. what an amazing tremp.. what an amazing person to meet.. the entire way.. he was teaching torah.. I was so glad I bumped into him..

I am trying to retrace my siddur.. I went back to wallaja spring.. it wasn't there..

I hope I find it.. or it finds a kind user..

sole on fire

wednesday
my soles were on fire..
it was a hot hot day.. and I was skating to the dead sea.. I left earlier than usual.. so it was hotter and also I changed a new brake pad on my rollerblades so I allowed myself to go a lot quicker.. this intensified the heat.. my feet felt they were on fire..
I went to the hot springs..
so so hot.. I was sure no one would show up on such a hot day.. I swam far far into the waters of the dead sea.. and then I saw two people approaching the spot where I left my stuff (clothes and rollerblades).. I was too far to swim back on time.. I just yelled.. I didn't want to lose my clothing.. it has happened in the past and it was not cool.. having your clothes stolen.. (yes, a miracle happened then in Goa..after two hours of crying praying trying to find my clothing.. any clothig..but still not fun.. )
after about an hour of swimming I got back to the shore.. my stuff was there.. a bit smoky... (from the two smokers..) but it was all there.. The 2 guys left shortly afterwards.. I washed up with my water bottle.. and then chilled.. no one else showed up.. it was quiet.. and fell asleep.. next to the beautiful dead sea.. and the mountains.. and the sky turning.. bluish.. pinkish..purplish..

got back to jerusalem.. and went to a fun night dip.. wallaja road spring..
(the next week I was back there.. and found out why it is called wallaja... if you skate down there from malcha.. it's a downhill and then you have the train tracks.. which you have to jump over.. coming from a downhill.. you are going at a nice speed ..the jumps are high and you need to do them fast...one after the other...you go walla walla walla walla..)

magical moments

wow! those magical moments when..
you love everyone.. and everyone and everything looks so beautiful..

.. can we have it every moment? please Hashem?

(after.. lifta water spring.. kotel)

סובו ציון והקיפוה

I was hoping we would all form a huge human hug around Jerusalem. There were quite a lot of people but not nearly enough for literally forming a hug.. hopefully it will happen very very soon!

Being erev shavous.. .. עליה לרגל I decided to circle around the jerusalem old city.. visiting all the gates.. stopped by the kotel.. and then kever dovid hamelech.. it was late.. but I couldn't miss davening at King David's kever erev his yahrtzeit... said a few chapters.. and then ran.. to my tehillim jam.. to sing more of King David's songs..

סובו ציון והקיפוה ספרו מגדליה שיתו ליבכם לחילה פסגו ארמנותיה למען תספרו לדור אחרון כי זה אלוקים אלוקינו עולם ועד ...

super chill caves.. water caves..

so much fun!!!!

I love hiking.. I get drawn into it.. even when I don't plan on going on a serious hike.. I just end up doing it.. I wore dressy shoes and a nice shirt.. I wasn't going to do an outdoor adventure.. I was going to go to Isralight's prayer class.. but I was tempted to take a quick dip in a spring before that.. "I have enough time"... but once you're out there on the trail.. it is really difficult to leave..."I'll just do another loop and then I'll get off the trail"... but then just another loop.. and another loop.. just all the way down.. just all the way up...to the top.. and so on.. always wondering and curious to see what's ahead.. it's not so easy to leave nature.. I am drawn to it.. it is where I am alive..
I just have to get myself a pair of hiking/water shoes.. and always wear them.. because even though I don't plan on doing a hike that day... somehow I always do...


The forests were nice..
but the caves... they were super chill!!!


I entered the caves.. I had no idea how high the water is.. I took off my shoes.. rolled up my skirt..and entered the caves.. the caves were dark.. so I lit a candle and took with me a box of matches.. the water was so refreshing.. at some point the water came up to above my chest.. and the cave's height was just right above my head.. further.. the caves expanded.. and then I came to the end.. I went back.. and explored other directions in the caves.. and the other water cave nearby.. of course I missed the class.. but bh I got to practice the class.. I headed to the kotel.. and prayed.. sweet sweet prayers in song.. I was so thankful for Hashem for everything.. and I prayed to continue to always see/enjoy/appreciate the beauty and goodness which He created for us all!

fairyland part 2

but this time I needed to jump over gates.. to get in..

wow! underground cities...the amazing caves...

a visit in fairyland...







wandering around in off hours.. when no one is there...

thank you Hashem for everything...

(and for the fresh clean socks.. and the chocolate bread sandwich.. and the swings.. and grass..)

avoiding black and white

I was walking down the path.. out of the bell caves.. heading back to the road..
It was dark outside.. and no lights.. I just tried to avoid the black spots.. those were the animal dung.. the white spots.. those were fine.. those were the safe spots...

reminding me of another walk in the darkness.. where it was just the contrary.. the black was the safe spots and the white.. - keep out..

In Peru walking down the road.. around Colca Canyon in a rain storm.. at night.. in total darkness. not seeing anything... just trying to avoid the white spots.. the black meant safety zone... the white.. walking into them was not fun.. that meant getting totally drenched.. and cold..those were the huge puddles..

Aneinu @ Even Sapir

I ruin all my shoes.. I don't plan on doing hikes.. and then somehow I am just dragged in...
and so it was today... I was just going to go to the spring.. refresh myself.. and head to the class @ the Carpathian Mountain House.. on eating holy food.. and eating it....Japanese..today.. yummy.. I was really excited to try it.. (the week before.. I was in Nachlaot.. wandering around trying to find B.. so that we can go to the springs at even sapir.. but I didn't know where B. lives.. I just walked around.. maybe someone would know.. B. mention that sometimes they go to the Carpathian Mountain House on Thursday for the 1 shekel shtetl meal... I figured they might know B. there.. they didn't.. but I got to meet.. a wonderful person, the housekeeper of the Carpathian House.. and he told me about his classes.. and he gave me some literature.. I was quite intrigued by it.. and decided that I should go.. especially on Tuesday's for Japanese meal and for the holy food talk.. I wanted to hear more... Later that night.. I walked to the Kotel.. and right nearby the kotel.. I bumped into B.. )

I only had an hour to the class and wasn't planning on hiking at all.. My father took a cab to Hadasah.. so I joined him.. I figured I'd do one of the springs around Even Sapir which is right next to Hadasah Ein Kerem.. So I got off at Hadasah.. but it was Har Hotzofim... heh! so I took the bus to Hadasah Ein Kerem... quite a long bus ride.. but finally go to Even Sapir.. I walked a bit.. and then someone stopped.. I asked about the springs nearby.. he said he only knew of a pool.. and the swimming there is really chill.. he didn't know the name of it.. so he drops me off there.. and I hike to it.. The weather was hot.. I was sweating.. and waiting to get in... It was a nice pool.....


there were 2 girls there.. I asked them.. what was the name of the spring.. they said עין אשקף...
no.. from all the springs in the area.. I end up @ .. עין אשקף ... I could never give up on going in springs.. I love springs!!!! but I couldn't go into this one.. a few years ago.. don't ask why.. but they filled the pool with "dead sick chickens" ?!? infected with a flu .. שפעת העופות .. I so wanted to go in.. but I couldn't..
I asked the girls.. if they knew of the ones really close by.. I really did not have much time.. they said that 5-10 minutes walk from here.. there is another one.. .. they went there a year ago.. and it was dry.. but who knows.. Super! yay! I spring.. I'll get in the water.. and be back on the road in 15 minutes.. heading to my class... so I thought...
I hiked.. and hiked.. and no water source... so I continued.. maybe it is just a little further..
just a little further...
there was no path.. and I was getting all scratched up by the bushes and thorns..
and then I got somehow lost... I didn't know my way out.. but also I couldn't just get out.. without finding the spring.. they were talking about.. so going back from where I came from was just not an option.. I continued searching.. the sun was starting to set..

I was totally unprepared for this hike.. wearing flip flops.. no matches.. nor food.. (in fact I didn't eat anything at all today.. besides for a tomato and cucumber.. I was planning to eat Japanese.. I wanted to be sensitized and truly appreciate the holy wholesome food which would be served...) nor camping gear... but no gear.. wasn't such a problem.. I have roughed it many times... with no gear at all...

..but I couldn't make anyone at home worry about me.. I didn't mention a hike on my agenda.. .. and I had no way of updating them.. now.. no cellophone.. so staying there.. even though it would've been really cool.. and I would've wanted to ...was not an option either...

I decided to start climbing upwards to the top.. and from there I'd find B'ezrat Hashem a way out.. I got up.. stunning views.. and I got to see the path that leads out of the forest.. now I could stay for a while... and chill.. the class was not happening.. I missed it..
There was still some sunlight.. so I got to pray mincha..
It got dark.. and I chilled for another hour.. on a rock.. overlooking beautiful Jerusalem.. and singing.. I composed a cool hypnotic middle eastern chant - aneinu rachum v'chanun aneinu... 20x aneinu aneinu aneinu a-a-neinu....

I didn't get to eat the wholesome food @ the Carpathian.. so I was going make it up.. I had the idea to make my own bread tonight.. yummy.. it is so rewarding.. making your own bread.. I use whole wheat flour.. and then I add all kinds of toppings.. olive oil, garlic, zatar, onions, tomatoes.. peppers.. the house smells so good.. and it tastes delicious.. it is so nourishing... heavenly.. .

I hiked out of the forest.. exited even sapir.. and then got on a tremp.. I wasn't exactly sure.. where I wanted to go.. I still owed myself a dip in a spring.. of course I talk about springs.. and he mentions a few.. but none were calling me tonight.. maybe I'll just go home.. and bake bread.. He continued driving towards Talpiot.. and then we pass Gan Hachayot.. .. oh.. wait.. stop.. I am getting off here.. there's Ein Lavan right nearby.. I have been there before but I haven't entered the water.. not going in.. doesn't really count as being there.. ..

wow! the water was delicious... perfect temperature!!

I took the bus back to town.. got some goodies.. lots and lots of ginger, mint leaves, olive oil, garlic, cherry tomatoes, vanilla and honeydew melon scented candles...

and then a bus home....

thank you Hashem for amazing adventures today!

Hashem delight me.. surprise me today!

Wow!! wow! I am glowing, skipping, dancing in the streets.. and can't stop laughing..

still laughing.. even while typing this.. '

What an amazing.. delightful day.. night.. Thank You G-d.. the secret is true.. and even more so... the secret of the secret.. (yay! I made Rabbi Schwartz class today! amazing.. please please join if you can.. you'll be happy.. I hope I will join...)

The mayan - spring was so delightful!! No one was there.. I had the place for myself..


I was a bit hesitant to enter the spring.. the water was cold!! but I did.. and oh am I glad that I took the plunge.. so so refreshing!! putting me on such an amazing high.. ( I could've been there and so not be there.. even after entering the water I could've thought that's all what it is.. but it really is not.. it could be so much more.. I dared myself.. I knew I was going to do it.. I totally dunked myself.. swam underwater.. floated.. splashing all over.. it was so much fun..)


I could've missed out on it.. and the entire day.. I could've missed out on it.. sometimes I get lazy but you just need that one moment of conviction.. that you're going do it.. and then wow! ...how can I live without it...


The hikes around nes harim, tzur hadasah, tzuba, the smell of the trees and herbs.. the clean water.. the cave..the trickling water in the cave, the gold fish... the rain drops.. the flowers, getting a ride right to town.. the class.. the smiles.. the holy people.. helping the lady in shuk with her shopping bags.. holy food talk..mushroom bourekas, ice coffee.. views of old jerusalem city walls, the shuk.. sliding down.. jumping over poles.., rovah, kotel, the songs, the prayers, the scent of dried orange peels.. so so heavenly..


Many times it's there.. but we can experience it how we want it..
on infinite levels and dimensions..

..awareness.. consciousness..happiness.. gratitude.. adds so much... the experience is on a total different dimension.. higher.. powerful.. more intense.. more real...

Thank you so much Hashem for today's wonderful surprises.. and the dessert was just so sweet.. seeing it really happen... the three principles

1. wanting.. stating.. believing in an infinite G-d making anything happen.. and infinitely cares for you..
2. letting go of your belief of how it's going to happen and letting G-d happen in your life..
3. opening up yourself.. your eyes and be ready to accept it.. asking Hashem to taking part in making it happen..

what an amazing encouragement.. .. reconfirmation.. inspiration.. I got to meet wonderful people and bumped right into them..
so yes G-d, I know you can surprise and delight me in the most amazing ways... and I know that what I know and what I have experienced so far.. is so much.. yet is nothing.. nothing.. it can't compare.. I have no idea just how much You can delight me.. it's infinite.. ...........
so please Hashem please surprise and delight me today..
show me how much..
show us how much..

The magic potion: sunblock

just putting it on.. makes me so so happy!!

(hey.. my body is getting excited.. the smell reminds me of all good times.. the amazing outdoors.. and triggers the happiness factor.. it's going happen... wow! wow quantum physics.. we really create our reality..)

The Voice of Rachel

כה אמר ה' קול ברמה נשמע נהי בכי תמרורים
רחל מבכה על בניה מאנה להנחם על בניה כי איננו.

I just got back from Kever Rachel..
yay! we can get to have the place all for ourselves..

I am thinking Wednesday nights from 10:00 to midnight..
for passionate prayers and song.. a sister space - musical emoting healing circle..

so if you are interested please sign up.. we can make it happen bezrat hashem.

May our prayers reach the heavens..
please Hashem answer them l'tovah very soon..

כה אמר ה' מנעי קולך מבכי ועיניך מדמעה

כי יש שכר לפעלתך נאם ה' ושבו מארץ אויב.
ויש תקוה לאחריתך נאם ה' ושבו בנים לגבולם